Has there ever been a time where you were overcome with an overwhelming feeling of sadness or sudden feeling of unworthiness. If yes then I have been in that same boat . For the past 3 years I’ve been in and out of a constant state of depression. I’ve decided to use this platform to speak on my experiences because there are many individuals who feel they’re going through this journey alone but there are thousands, even millions of people who are battling with depression.
What is Depression?
Depression or major depressive disorder is a very common and serious medical illness that negatively affects how an individual feels the way they think and how they act. Depression causes feelings of sadness and/or a loss of interest in activities that were once enjoyable. It can lead to a variety of emotional and physical problems and can decrease a person’s ability to function at work and at home. some of they many symptoms include:
- Feeling sad or having a depressed mood
- Loss of energy or increased fatigue
- Loss of energy or increased fatigue
- Difficulty thinking, concentrating or making decisions
- Thoughts of death or suicide
Studies have shown that depression affects an estimated (6.7% of adults in any given year. And 16.6%of people will experience depression at some time in their life. Depression can strike at any time, but on average, first appears during the late teens to mid-20’s.
My Experiences With Depression
It was my second semester of Junior Year of high school when I realized that mentally something was very off. I was becoming more and more emotionally unstable.I began to have an overwhelming feeling of loneliness which led me to start isolating myself from my friends and family. I was becoming more and more irritable and fatigued. Daily activities in a whole were becoming more and more challenging. Living in a household where depression is seen as a myth or you just being sad really added on to my symptoms becoming worse and worse. For the first 2 years of my life I was constantly dismissed if I stated that I wasn’t okay mentally. I was told there was nothing wrong with me or that I just needed some rest day in and day out. My living situation at the time was not the best which contributed to my constant thoughts of ending my life. There were times where I would research ways to bring harm to myself but never had the guts to do it. I would never forget Senior Year of high school, I stayed home for two days straight because I was having a mental breakdown. Can you imagine waking up, on the verge of having a panic attack because you’re unsure of whats wrong with you. Being bombarded with so many emotions at a time and living in a household where no one fully understood what was going on with you. This is something I wouldn’t wish on on anyone.
Entering into college I began to do more and more research to pinpoint what was truly going on with me both mentally and emotionally. After extensive amount of research I came to the conclusion that I was indeed going through a stage of depression. No psychiatrist was needed to diagnose something that was evidently there. I decided to take matters into my own hands and began seeking counseling. The summer which began my sophomore year of college I began attending weekly sessions with my college counselor. Here I was able to pinpoint some situations that brought on my depression and it also offered me an outlet to express my emotions no matter how big or small they were. While seeking counseling my family has disagreed with my actions because they feel as though it’s a waste of time seeing as “nothing is wrong with me” but me being me I’ve continued to attend my weekly sessions. I will say I have seen an extensive amount of progress within myself. Yes there are days where I feel myself being overwhelmed but I always try to think of the good days that I’ve been blessed to have while on this journey to work on my mental health.
SAMHSA’s National Helpline, 1-800-662-HELP (4357), (also known as the Treatment Referral Routing Service) or TTY: 1-800-487-4889 is a confidential, free, 24-hour-a-day, 365-day-a-year, information service, in English and Spanish, for individuals and family members facing mental and/or substance use disorders.